Waiting Game

I'm waiting.  For exactly what I'm not sure.  A call just came from the nursing home, Grandma is "pale and peaceful."  The nurse thinks it will be soon. When pressed for what she means by soon she believes it's this week. I'm now waiting for Kevin to get home with the kids so I can go, which I was already planning on but now it feels urgent, even though it's not really.

I noticed that the kids no longer say, "Hi Grandma's house!" as we drive over her street on the expressway. She's already being erased from our family and she's not even really gone.

Comments

[Nicole]

She'll never be erased from your family. Sadie often speaks of my grandma "Gege" as though she remembers her, even though she died 2 years before Sadie was born. Your love and memories will keep her spirit alive long after she is gone!

[Elizabeth]

I understand and hope that feeling will change over time. David and I just went out to toast my grandma (a day early), as I do every year for her birthday. Grandma passed years before the kids were born, but they know all of her little sayings, what she named her car, her favorite color, etc. In many ways they know more about her than about their living grandparents. Love is a powerful thing, and talking about our loved ones keeps them with us. XOXO