Life sucks.

I'm having one of those really depressing times in my life, which really sucks because I should be happy.

Everything is in turmoil around me, everyone is annoying me, and I just want to escape.  I'd like to crawl in a hole. Notice I didn't say crawl in a hole and die, just crawl in a hole.

I want to be settling down and being able to focus on the baby but it's not happening.  So other than a few hours in childbirth class, this kid is getting no attention.

My synagogue is falling apart. I can be a part of the salvation efforts but it requires energy I don't really have.

My dear friends left town for a better job and I miss them terribly.

I can't figure out what to do about Grad School. If I stay in full time, I'll be demented and crazy not to mention a bad mother. If I go part time I'll be killed by the really hard courses online AND demented, crazy and a bad mother.  And I can't even get them to talk to me about a deferment.

My house feels like its falling apart. If you've been reading awhile you may wonder how the heck that can be with all the repairs. (Did I mention the plumber was here yesterday fixing the toilet?) But there is always something that needs fixing. (Like the kitchen floor still not being done...)

The house is so cluttered and no matter how much I shovel I don't seem to hit the bottom. And the kids aren't helping. (I know I'm deluded in thinking that they would/could.)

My decision making ability is falling quickly.  I think it's a pregnancy thing.  I can't even decide where to eat out for lunch when going out with friends.  The thought of having to make a decision, even of this magnitude is overwhelming. I want to burst into tears when asked for a date, even for a prenatal visit because I can't even think.  So imagine trying to coordinate the back to school physicals, eye exams, dental exams, etc.

I'm overwhelmed and sinking quickly.  Now where was that hole?

Comments

[Christina Martin]

I'll keep you in prayer today... May you receive great joy!

[Stacie]

I'll send some Reiki your way... good energy can't hurt, right? Let me know if there's anything I can do to help ease the burden. And if you'd like to go out for mocktails or dessert sometime (not trying to add more stress with another date), give me a shout.

[Bekki]

AWW Sweet Robin, I'm so sorry you are feeling down. I'll definitely be praying for you. Chin up buttercup!

[Carrie Vittitoe]

I'm kinda having one of those spells too. Just annoyed ALOT and feeling blah. This too shall pass (although it may feel like it never will).

[Diane]

Hi

I know you are overwhelmed - but you have been blessed with several children and one on the way. I wish I could be so lucky. I wish I could just have one - but I can not carry a baby past eight weeks. I have lost two in a row and have been told that I do not produce healthy eggs that will produce healthy embroys. I know you are busy - but remember your little miracles that god has given you and your husband.

[Jen F-A]

I am bummed that you're having a rough summer! Believe me, we all know that you're grateful for your life...there's just times that you need to "Thelma and Louise" and get away. Been there. Hormones suck, and they just keep getting worse until we're all done with that stuff. Please know that you are loved even when you don't feel lovable (and even when the d*mn kids won't pick up their messes). Saying hey from the chaos that is my life, Jen