So my grandma called today to say she'd missed her normally scheduled hair cut. But that she was sent a coupon in the mail. If she came in now she could get a hair cut and a free blow job...
I told her I'm sure someone would switch coupons with her. LOL
I thought you guys might get a kick out of this one... So, Kevin loses his phone, conveniently just before the new iPhones come out, and has to borrow Hilary's. So he goes to "hide" the cell phone in the lid of the VCR in the van. And instead, the phone falls INTO the VCR. Now the VCR lays on its side in the van to fit between the two front seats. So it's a long way down... Nothing fits, not our hands, not the tongs we own and there the phone sits. And it's currently running out of batteries, so every few minutes: *beep* a reminder NOT to put a skinny cell phone near the opening of a VCR.
For everyone who wrote me to say nice things - thank you. I'm just having a rough time, which I really don't enjoy. For those who wrote to tell me I should be happy/grateful - I am. You can be sad and grateful at the same time. I know what a blessing my family is, after pregnancy loss on top of pregnancy loss - I know the value of a baby. I was also one of those people who made the promise to anyone who would listen that "If I could only get pregnant - I wouldn't complain about simple aches and pains." It just didn't work that way. So now I explain to people trying to get pregnant and struggling - "You sometimes make promises to yourself and there is no real way to keep them, it would just fester and make you ill. Grateful doesn't mean your back doesn't hurt." And don't forget the hormones. I cry over everything and can't make a decisions - I'm a decisive person who rarely shows emotion - it hurts.
So, please know I'm grateful, for my family, my friends, our new baby and even my husband. As Garfield the cat says, "I try to take it one day at a time, but sometimes several days attack me all at once..."
And now a random picture or few from our vacation:
I'm having one of those really depressing times in my life, which really sucks because I should be happy.
Everything is in turmoil around me, everyone is annoying me, and I just want to escape. I'd like to crawl in a hole. Notice I didn't say crawl in a hole and die, just crawl in a hole.
I want to be settling down and being able to focus on the baby but it's not happening. So other than a few hours in childbirth class, this kid is getting no attention.
My synagogue is falling apart. I can be a part of the salvation efforts but it requires energy I don't really have.
My dear friends left town for a better job and I miss them terribly.
I can't figure out what to do about Grad School. If I stay in full time, I'll be demented and crazy not to mention a bad mother. If I go part time I'll be killed by the really hard courses online AND demented, crazy and a bad mother. And I can't even get them to talk to me about a deferment.
My house feels like its falling apart. If you've been reading awhile you may wonder how the heck that can be with all the repairs. (Did I mention the plumber was here yesterday fixing the toilet?) But there is always something that needs fixing. (Like the kitchen floor still not being done...)
The house is so cluttered and no matter how much I shovel I don't seem to hit the bottom. And the kids aren't helping. (I know I'm deluded in thinking that they would/could.)
My decision making ability is falling quickly. I think it's a pregnancy thing. I can't even decide where to eat out for lunch when going out with friends. The thought of having to make a decision, even of this magnitude is overwhelming. I want to burst into tears when asked for a date, even for a prenatal visit because I can't even think. So imagine trying to coordinate the back to school physicals, eye exams, dental exams, etc.
I'm overwhelmed and sinking quickly. Now where was that hole?
My DH couldn't handle NOT updating my iPhone to download apps. I guess the good news is that I can blog wherever I go now. (Yes, K really wrote that!)
This was taken at SeaWorld on July 4th at the underwater viewing tank.
I've got the workmen here to install my new kitchen floor. Here is what I've heard so far:
Well, despite a sinus infection, Kevin flew in and we went to Sea World. (Hilary stayed with April and enjoyed herself there - her choice.) We saw dolphins, stingrays (Lilah touched one.), eels and the scorpion fish (Ada's fav), tree frogs, sharks and the Shamu show. I accidentally witnessed what must be the Sea World after Dark show with the dolphins if you know what I mean... But Owen was just thrilled that she saw a dolphin pee. It was so hot that on the way IN to the park I bought a hat to wear. So after awhile, I agree dto tak the girls to lunch and K took B to ride Atlanatis. Lunch was borning, minus the 10 yo girl stepping on my foot to walk between me and the stroller I was pushing, the bruise is bad and I hope I don't have a hairline fractuce, and the French, fork jousting toddler who speared my arm unexpectedly (to me). What is it about me? Kevin showed up just in time, I was wondering what else I was going to have to live through. LOL
B loved the ride and they were both soaked. We went to see the sharks at this point then to Shamu. K and I were a bit disappointed in the show, which was more about the trainers pretending to be cheerleaders than the whales. *shrug*
We drove home and met up with April for more swimming at the hotel. Then I started texting Juliet. She said it was raining at home and she was jealous. Just to show her no hard feelings, I sent her a pic of the girls swimming to show her no ill will. We also could see the fireworks from our bed in the hotel room - best seats ever! Now, if only Disney did fireworks like our hometown...
Excerpts from my adventures today:
kids misbehavin'
then i waited an hour for the safe guy to come and open the safe that was left locked
but i had to be in the room
so finally they came
then we left
and Owen starts crying that her throat hurts
so I get some cough drops
but they are too spicy
so I get gas too and realize I can't find my cc
call K to get him to cancel card, he whines about having to do (I'm at a gas station in FL DAMINIT!)
then I go somewhere else and get meds for O, who is now fine
oh and while we were waiting for the safe guy somehow I got a fire ant in my underwear and it bit me multiple times in a stretch mark
OUCH!
so pirate golf - hot and semi-fun
hilary and lilah too competitive
lost too many balls
ada swinging a putter
so we get home and the maid locked the bathroom door
we all have to go but no where to go
20 minutes they said they'd send someone up right - took an hour
i'm just laughing at this point
2:15 PM
hilary is taking the little girls to the lobby to potty
but the lobby is far away
and someone is outside our door smoking
and we'll not have water tonight...
Well, after the long, awful, 19 hour drive, we made it. I'll admit to having tears in my eyes as my daughters watched the princesses dance in front of the castle. In general it was a very enjoyable day and everyone had a blast and was well behaved. Highlights:
And despite April's dire predictions of busy times, we had fairly short wait times and no rain. (Weather man called for 60% chance of thunder storms.)
